We’re exhausted, Mama. And trust me, I know the guilt that comes with it. The same routine, the same struggles, the same reactions. It’s “Mommy” all day long, quiet time that never feels quiet, a messy house that’s never clean, even though you spend all day cleaning. Someone always needs you, and if they don’t, there’s always something that needs to be done. 

When I wrote this poem, I was in the thick of it: crying, overwhelmed, hopeless, guilty, you name it. But God answered, like He always does. His answer didn’t come right away, but throughout the next day, I practiced the patience I asked Him for. The more I used it, the easier it was to see things from my children’s point of view. They don’t see a messy house or an overly tired mama. They see fun, toys, someone else to play with, comfort, and safety. It’s simple for them, but so complex at the same time because there are big feelings they can’t explain or control. 

Absolutely, it’s overwhelming and exhausting to be a constant source of support, but that is motherhood. I didn’t have children to push them away when I was tired or to raise my voice when they are being children. I had children because I loved them before I even knew them. I knew I would make sacrifices for them. I would put myself in harm’s way if it meant they were safe. 

So why am I complaining about being tired? Why am I letting exhaustion keep me from being the mother they deserve? Why am I overstimulated from doing the most innate thing? 

Because motherhood isn’t making me exhausted, I am. Sure, I lose some sleep taking care of the kiddos, but the mental and emotional drain is my own doing. I’m giving attention to things that don’t even matter. I’m taking on more than I need to. I’m worrying instead of trusting. 

When I understood this, my whole mindset changed. I’m no longer making excuses or allowing anything to consume my mind that doesn’t benefit my family.

Motherhood isn’t perfect. It’s hard, and there are new challenges along with the same struggles. It’s finding balance. It’s trial and error. It’s learning from our mistakes. It’s sacrificing part of ourselves, and it’s trusting God through it all.